Im sorry I m fell so hard...

I just read our conversations in Hang out and I see
we really did argue a lot. And usually because of misunderstandings. But the way you ended it was foul...And to make me a criminal and

It must be made right...

Without closure there can be no end. Too many questions and not enough truth. So many hateful actions mixed with "I found God", one counters the other. Using the legal system to avoid telling the truth and mask the evil you were caught doing....And continue to do.

It hurts to see you haven't changed one bit, that you continue to lie and put your grandson at risk not too mention exposing him to your sinful nature and involving him as an  accomplice. And none of the drama would be necessary if you just told the truth. Your to blame and all of your bad will come back to haunt you.

The problem I have with it is your lies and evil have affected my life in so negative a way. And I'm burdened d with dealing with the anger it develops in me. And at some point I will say I've had enough and I will end if once and for all. I assure you it will be ugly. And we will all pay the price, no one will win...

I don't know why I ever even looked at her...

Sad but I still have her on my mind...

I can't seem to free myself of the thought of her. Something still holds on to her even though I know her last stunt proved l how evil she is. I just need her to tell me the truth. But she hasn't told anyone the truth for a long time. Maybe the Sunshine State will flush the poison from her and she may come to see what damage she has done to others as well as her self. Her drunk Chester needs to stop his antics as well. He better check inside his vehicle ever time he gets in.....I smell skunk!

It's hard not to hate her...

It's difficult to not hate her when she continues to have such s profound effect on my life. I need to get ready for work and drop Xz at Julie s but I know she'll call the sheriff. And her molester boy friend had been following me the post free days and I will go off on the little bastard.
How she lives with her self its a mystery to me. I hope she gets struck by lightning in the storm coming out way.

Don't let anger win...

I have asked the Lord to remove the anger over and over but it still lingers. I know she took extreme measures to get her life Bach on track and that's great. But to do what she did at my expense and the way she did it was foul. I wasn't a threat to her or her family and she knows it. She made me an enemy full of hatseee because I caught her with a child molester and the husband of her do called friend fucking in her shed. Her guilty conscience created her fear. And her lies got her the restraining order that she has used and abused to no end. But her stunt on the first day of the year just shows how truly evil she really is. And her child molester boy friend following me proves she's a slut. And the phony I found God bullshit makes me puke.
There was no reason to do the things she did the way she did them. The truth would have done it all. The lies just created the mess.
So now she has lost a friend and she has someone who hates her. Kind of stupid I think. And she will have to live in great fear now wondering if I will get even of not. And since she won't know when that will happen...
I wish I had never met her. And I hope all her lies come down upon her and destroy her and make her life as worthless as she really is.

Please God... take my anger !

I don't really care now about the why 's , what's and lies or if it was or still is the substance that caused the delusionall behavior.  I've prayed and asked to remove this anger that consumes me so I can focus on my needs and get on with my life.  But it keeps getting thrown back on me and taking me the wrong way as I barely hang on. I had a really good idea that had all the pieces there ready to be assembLed.  It was a recipe for success for everyone. But look how the addition of fruitcake and one big nut spoiled everybody's party.  She belongs in a mental ward. All 3, 4 or 5 of her. It's all so insane.