I Really Don't Have Hope Anymore...

I lost too much this time, got too much crap pulled on me and have nothing left to reach for. I had struggled for a lot of years to get where I was January 1st and because a total cunt had to be a total cunt I had my hard work wiped away. I've now been buried in it so deep I'd be stupid to try because I know its impossible and I'll never get back what I lost. I'd rather spend everything I have left on extracting my vengeance. At least then I'll have something I want and the satisfaction of knowing I got it. It may be stupid top everyone else but it's what can make me happy again.